So I know we are already into our first week of February 2014, but I did want to make a short blog post about entering into a new calendar year and reflecting about the year that seemed to rush madly by.
For me, 2013 was a year of huge changes and shifts in my life both personally and professionally.
When I began CreativeEdge, two years ago, it was out of a deep desire and equally deep frustration. I was constantly compelled to begin putting my energy work out into the public eye while at the same time feeling a horrible terror of being out in the public eye.
Just like when I defended my PhD in 2003, I was terrified that someone would really see me and in the process of being seen, I would be called a charlatan, a dummy or a fake. I wanted to stay hidden, protected in anonymity. At the same time, I felt the growing frustration of being anonymous, hidden and unseen. I was in the in between space where you recognize what you really really want is what you are equally really really terrified to receive.
In 2012, what propelled me into my public practice of energy work could be summed up in two points:
- I did not want to die and leave this on the table so to speak. I realized that I had to start this business and put all of my best efforts into this for as long as my body was on this planet.
- I no longer wanted to make decisions in my life based on fear.
|Photo by Jill Philipchuk|
At the end of 2013, I worked, and I am continuing to work at extracting myself from unhealthy partnerships and to move towards debt elimination. At the same time, I have been working on developing deeper connections with my family, my husband and loved ones.